September 7th, 2009

Well it's been a while since I last posted. My sister has almost reached her due date! She has 1 more month and then baby Anthony should be here! Julie and Jeremy got married a few weeks ago while in Vegas! Their wedding was absolutely gorgeous! I cried from beginning to end! I am so happy for them, I really hope they have a wonderful life together! The vacation outside of the wedding was not as great. Dan never wanted to bring Audrey because he thought she wouldn't be ready, and as much as I hate to admit this, he was right. Audrey threw many temper tantrums, and she was just plain rotten at times. Now, obviously there were positive things about the vacation, like the watershow at the Bellagio which was Audrey's favorite. She watched the damn thing 4 times! haha

Audrey starts Kindergarten TOMORROW! We went to her Kindergarten orientation, and she flipped. I think she was just realizing that everything we had talked about since Pre-K ended was finally coming true. Reality set in, and she just lost it. Maybe we were putting too much emphasis on going to Kindergarten, and that is why she acted like she did. She completely regressed and acted like a 2 year old. Not only was I completely mortified, but I didn't know how to speak to her with everyone watching me! It was a nightmare! She is doing a little better now when she talks about Kindergarten. She isn't as terrified. We keep talking to her about all the toys we saw there and about how much fun she will have. Hopefully it works, I'd hate to see her get on the bus tomorrow kicking and screaming!

Things with Dan aren't as great lately. We're working on some stuff, but I hope we can get over it soon. His father and I got into an argument last weekend which has put everyone up in the air. His dad implied that I am not a good wife. Then his mother started saying how I'm always misearable at their home, and basically said that I'm the reason Dan doesn't come home more often. The end resulted in his father is never coming to my home again, and I am not going out there again. Dan is pretty pissed off at everyone.... including himself. His dad was screaming and yelling at me, telling me all these things, and Dan didn't stick up for me or stop it at all. He just stood there, saying nothing. I feel very betrayed by that. He has appologized over and over again, and I know that I need to let it go, but I'm so hurt. We are getting better day by day, but I don't know how our marriage is going to work knowing his dad can't come out here ever again, and I won't be traveling out there. My family was pretty upset with Dan as well, but they are easing up. He acknowledged he made a mistake, and they are treating him somewhat normally.

Friends... hmmm where do I begin???? Jen and I are good again, we've been hanging out a little bit more. I haven't spoken to Tracy in a while. I think she's mad at me, but at this point I really don't care. I had a 6 week break from school, and I tried to get together with her, but *surprise surprise* she has a new boyfriend, so we didn't get together. I'm not inviting her to my birthday this year either. I gave her several times where I was available to get together. It clearly wasn't important to her, so I am over it. If I were any type of friend to her, she would have tried somehow.... right???

School has been amazing! I just started my last official semester of classes this week, and then I start student teaching in January! I went back to 23 school with Mrs. Conner for a few days to see how the first couple days of classes goes, and it was so nice seeing the kids again. She moved up to 2nd grade this year, and took half of her kids with her, so it was nice to see everyone again! I was even told of a few positions opening up at the end of the year, so you bet your butt I will be applying! haha I find out in 4 days what school I will be in for this semester! I'm very excited about that! I requested Churchville, but I'm not sure if that will work out. I will be happy with any placement. All I know is that I will be in 4th-6th grade. I am thinking of taking a few extra classes after I graduate in May to get my certification in Birth-2 as well, so when I am done I will be certified Birth-6th. In fact, I'm pretty sure I'll do it. I feel that it will make me more marketable, as people now are only getting certified either Birth-2 or 1-6. I'm just praying I get a job once I graduate! I'm hoping to make some good connections while doing my OPE this semester and my Student Teaching so I will have good recommendations upon graduation! Ahh I can't wait!