June 22nd, 2003

I dont know why, but lately I have seriously been depressed. Its like nothing can please me. Nothing anyone does can make me happy anymore. I hate being in my own skin. Its been this way for about a year now almost... the initial depression started when Mike cheated on me and told me how fat and ugly I was... and its been down hill from there. I feel like I am dying inside, and nobody seems to care. Nobody even seems to notice that something is wrong. Maybe I am just a good actress. I try and act all happy, but its retarded to fake my feelings. Why does it feel like I am the only one in this freakin world? And why is it that nobody seems to care what happened to me? Life just sucks...