So we had Benjamin's party today. I'd like to think it was a good time. It felt really rushed, especially because I thought I had to work when it turns out I didn't, so I was a bit upset about that, but it's fine. Benjamin had a lot of fun. I seriously wonder if him and Cailyn will ever date. He loves that girl SO much it's insane. He chases around after her constantly, I'm surprised she's not annoyed by it yet! He's very excited that she will be with us all day on Tuesday for his birthday.
Things with my in-laws are going well. It's just my MIL and SIL who came to visit. Obviously my FIL couldn't come because he's forbidden, plus I am not ready to see him again since the "incident". My MIL and I had a nice talk tonight about everything. She apologized again for everything that had happened. I just explained that it was easy for me to be hurt by her because I felt so close to her, as my mother has been completely inconsistent in my life. However it was also easier to forgive her because I wanted that bond back again. I am in no hurry to forgive my FIL because I never had that bond with him. It sounds sad to say, but I don't feel a large loss that we aren't speaking. I'm not really that "hurt" by him, I'm more so pissed off to be honest. I feel he was completely out of line and therefore I am in no rush to go back to the way it was. Maybe if Dan felt closer to him than I would feel that pressure, but because he really hasn't confronted his feelings either I will do it when I feel so inclined.
On a new topic, someone asked me today what I was doing to "prep" for student teaching... AM I SUPPOSED TO BE PREPPING???? I have looked at the 4th grade curriculum for NYS, but it's not like the curriculum details when the stuff will be taught, so I have no idea what I will be walking in to. I'm going to email my host teacher and see what I should be doing while waiting. I'm very bored when I don't have school work to do. I waste my time on facebook. The kids are more independent and like playing by themselves, so I don't know what to do with myself over this break. I suppose I should clean or organize the house... HAHA that is just NOT happening!
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