November 8th, 2007

Well it's been 2 years since I've written in this thing! I actually forgot I had it! It wasnt until I was talking to a coworker about her LJ that I decided to see if mine was still active! A lot has happened in two years *obviously*. I ended up getting pregnant, and my son is almost a year old. He was born 12/29/06! The pregnancy with him was way harder than my pregnancy with audrey, but hes a very happy healthy baby boy, and I couldnt be happier! Dan and I just celebrated our 2 year wedding anniversary, and next week is our 5 year anniversary together! We are sending the kids to my dads house and then my moms house for the weekend so we can spend some alone time together! We've both decided no more babies!!! haha I am still very much in love with him, so I'm looking forward to spending 60 more years as his wife *god willing*. Audrey is almost 3 and a half now! Shes such an amazing girl, but OH SO CRANKY!!! Haha She's definatly going to be a DIVA! She's enrolled in dance class, and she loves it so much!

I have been very busy lately! I am still in college... yup, so freakin sad! But I graduate in May with a bachelors in psychology with a minor in women and gender studies. If I were sane, I'd be done, but NOPE! I decided this year that I am going to be a nurse! So that means more schooling on top of my psych degree. I have a few choices ahead of me. My sister just got a job at Strong Hospital, and if I'm allowed to go to the U of R at a discounted rate I may consider going there for their 1 year BS to RN program. Or I can continue to go to MCC to be an RN. Either way, it's a lot of work ahead of me.

I am still at Crestwood, but I switched to the overnights so I can focus on schooling. It sucks, terribly. But whatever. I just want to get done, and this is the only way I can do so. I cannot wait to walk across that stage in May. I cant explain it. Even though I know I'll have more schooling ahead of me, just to know that I've been at fisher for 6 years and finally did it while getting married and having 2 kids is just amazing! I hope that my children will look back and really respect me for my dedication. It would have been so easy to quit, but thats just not me. I'm too stubborn to let anything get in the way of my dreams, and being a nurse would help my family forever.

The friend situation is touchy I guess. I've made some great friends from Crestwood who have literally changed my life in such a great way. These girls are just so amazing, understanding, caring, and always there for me when I need them *TH, MQ, LG, SM* I love them to pieces!!!!
Marisa and I are still good friends, although we've drifted a bit with our lives. She never ended up getting married... her ex is an ass, and thats one of the best things I could say about him. He didnt deserve her, so as hard as it was to watch her cry, I know it's for the best. Her daughter and audrey are still best friends, so sometimes we get the girls together, but now that she's a single mom, her life went one way and mine went the other. No matter where our lives take us though, I know we will always be close. Its just the way it is.
Tracy is amazing! She is in her final year of grad school and i'm totally jealous of her in every single way! She's going to make such a great counselor. She doesnt give herself enough credit. She's always saying how I'm so hard working, but she does the same shit as me, with her internship, regular job, and school FT, the girl is NUTS.. just like me! To this day we have still never had a fight, and I think thats amazing! There is honestly not one bad thing I can say about her <3
Amy and I are still tight. We had some drama, but it's done now. She's hilarious, and together we have such a great time together. It's great to have another friend who is married and can fully admit that marriage is freakin tough and sucks at times. Some of my single friends say "at least you are married", but Amy is the only one that can fully understand where I'm coming from.
Laurie is in MA now, living there with her boyfriend. She seems very happy, and I'm so happy for her! They are going to be engaged soon, and i'm sooo friggin happy for her! He's a great guy, and will make her very happy. I think she's thinking of going back to school, i hope she does. She's too smart to not pursue education further... i totally sound like her mom! haha
T-sha moved to FL where she's pursuing her dream of acting/dancing. I'm so crazy proud of her it's insane! It sounds bad, but I never would have thought she'd have the guts to move away from home to do this... I hope she makes it bigtime!!!! She's too talented not to!!!
I guess the only one left is Jen.. not too sure what to say about her. We are having another spat, like the 2nd one this month and it is just getting too hard to be her friend. It sucks because when she's not being a drama queen she's always the life of the party. She can be so much fun to be around, but at the same time I feel like I have to walk on eggshells with her. I cant tell her EVER if she upsets me, because instead of addressing a problem, it blows up faster than I could ever imagine. Having a conversation in that instance is not an option. I dont trust her, and that sounds terrible, but she is a compulsive liar, she lies to cover up lies. Being someones friend shouldnt have to be so much work, but sometimes being her friend is so easy. I just dont know what to do. She's great with my kids, she getting her life on track with work *she got a job at Crestwood too*, but I should be able to be upset and feel comfortable in telling someone how they made me feel, address the situation, and move on without it becoming a huge production and throwing other peoples name into it.... UGH. I'm so fustrated it's insane. Basically, I have so much crap going on between school, work, kids, and dan that more stuff added on to that is not looking very appealing. Do i just ignore my feelings? WHATEVER!!!

Dans working at CCC too now! He started as an overnight almost a year ago *right before benjamin was born* and when i decided to do overnights he switched with me, so now he has my day shift. He seems to like it. He just got a pretty decent raise, so it's helping us both out! He's been pretty depressed about life lately though, I just hope he can start opening up to me so we can address it and take care of it so it doesnt hurt our marriage more than it already has. Alright I'm done now, I am gonna sleep before work tonight! I think I like having this LJ back.... :o)