March 29th, 2004

Right now I got a lot on my mind. The baby, obviously, but I dont know what to do about school next year. It sucks I am not working now, cuz i get so bored, so I definatly want to work after the baby is born. But its gonna be so hard, cuz Dan is a senior next year, and him graduating from college ontime is important to me, so I dont want him to mess his schedule up. Then of course I would like to take a few classes at MCC online or night classes just so I am not soo far behind. I think I am going to take a one year leave of absense from Fisher and see how I feel about school in the fall. I know in the spring I am just gonna go to MCC full time and try and take a few summer classes too, before me and Dan get married that is. Once he graduates college tho it will be so much easier cuz we both wont be working and going to school, so our schedules will be easier to manage.

Another problem... our living situation. Ever since my dad and his bitch/slut/whore or a girlfriend broke up, he's kinda been weird. He doesnt talk to me anymore, and when he does, he yells or criticizes. So of course me and dan want to leave, but where the hell can we go? NOWHERE.. so we are kinda stuck. I am just worried its gonna get worse once the baby comes. He will have added stress then... grrr..

So torn about so much, I dont know what to do :( Thank god for dan.. he is being so amazing to me throughout this whole situation. He's so genuine, kind and compassionate. I dont know what I would do without him. He is my rock.