June 6th, 2004

Again, nothing much is happening. My sister did move in. She put up one hell of a fight tho. But its actually going ok. She still wants to go to my moms house to see her "boyfriend", but it hasnt happened yet. I am getting pretty antsy to have the baby. I have been cleaning and organizing the nursery to get ready. Gotta do some more laundry tomorrow. Did you know that you have to wash EVERYTHING that the baby will wear before hand? Well if you saw how many clothes I got at the baby shower you'd feel bad for me. But I dont really mind it. It gives me a chance to see everything again. Dan and I had a discussion last night about the baby coming, and we both agreed we are ready. I just want to see and hold him/her. We have an ultrasound on tuesday! I dont really want to find out the sex, but Dan really does, so if the baby is positioned right we will find out. But I hope that it isnt! I really think I am having a boy. Everyone around me is having a girl, so I must be the one with the boy right?? Who knows, as long as my child is healthy, I am not gonna complain!

Lelanie's baby shower is on saturday! We went shopping for her gift this week. Oh and I saw Mark and Amy yesterday. They stopped over my house. It was good to see them again, but something is just off. I dont know if they felt it too, but we just arent the same. At least I am not. Sometimes I feel like I am competing with them or something, and I dont want to. Its just weird. But I would definatly say the visit was akward. But I guess thats just part of growing up, you drift away from friends. I am actually pretty anxious to see what friends stick around after the baby is born. I mean, my life will be dramatically different, I will be a mom. So I am wondering if I will drift from some. Thats why I havent asked anyone to be in my wedding yet. Cuz you can never be too sure. Alright well I am just babbeling now so I will go. I got more cleaning to do :) Byes