June 2nd, 2004

I am soo fucking pissed off right now I dont know where to begin. Lets first start off by saying that my sister is the most spoiled brat in the entire fucking world. She was supposed to be moving in my house to help me out cuz of some pregnancy complications and stuff, and they want someone with me at all times. Well because she is putting up a fucking fight she probobly isnt moving in. The only reason she doesnt want to is because her dumb ass boyfriend got out of jail today and she wants to spend time with him, instead of help me out. Never mind the fact that I really do need someone with me, cuz she doesnt fucking care about anyone but herself. It pisses me off cuz I do so much for her, and she treats me like shit. Well I just learned my lesson. I am seriously not even gonna talk to her anymore. I dont care. She was threatening to run away and not tell us where she would go. So I asked her if she'd do that to her family, just cut them off like that and she said yea. She doesnt even fucking realize what she's doing to her family. We are all worried about her, cuz of the people she's been hanging out with. These kids are into hardcore drugs, not just weed. But it dont matter to her. And now she's talking about quitting school if she doesnt pass this year, which probobly wont happen, so she has pretty much decided to be a fucking loser for the rest of her life. My parents are stuck cuz whenever my sister doesnt get her way she threatens suicide. So they always give in. Its fucking bullshit. She gets away with everything. Ugh I'm just so pissed right now... Its pretty fucking sad when you're sister would choose her loser boyfriend over her sister with a health problem... its fucking sad.