March 24th, 2004

I have noticed that I have been stressed a lot lately. I dont know what to say really. I mean, I have a lot of shit going down in school lately, papers, exams etc. Its good that theres only a month left! I cant wait for that. But I have also been debating in my head whether or not to drop out of fisher and go to brockport. Its wayyy cheaper. And with a baby, we are gonna need to be as cheap as we can get.

My sister isnt helping matters. In her livejournal, she says that she's getting mad cuz all people do is talk about the baby. Shes starting to sound like my grandma R. I cant help that my mom and grandparents are excited, or even the fact that I am excited. Even tho this wasnt planned, its amazing to think that in 3 and a half months there will be a baby here, one that me and dan made... its exciting. So what am i supposed to do? Stop talking to my sister? I dont know..grrr I dont want her to be hurt, but I dont wanna stop talking about something cuz when she has a baby thats all she's gonna talk about, she's just too young to realize it.

The good thing is that Dan is being such a big help throughout everything. He's so amazing to me it makes me cry sometimes *gotta love hormones*. Even after he works all day long and will be in pain, he still insists on rubbing my back because I am pregnant and deserve it. I dont know what I did to deserve that man, but I thank god every single day that he is there to put a smile on my face. I just hope I am making him as happy as he is making me.