December 29th, 2004

Well everyone, merry belated christmas! Hope Santa was good to everyone! My christmas was unusual but good. We spent it with Dans family, so I was missing my family pretty bad, but hey, sacrifices have to be made on my part too. Audrey was so funny. She got sooo many toys, yet all she really cared about was a teether! She opened up some of the gifts on her own, but Dan and I mostly unwrapped for her! Anna is out here in rochester for the week! I'm excited cuz she is so funny, and sometimes I get lonely around here. We took lots of pics this weekend though, so I am prolly taking them to get developed today. Audrey looked so freakin cute in her dress!!!!! I'm glad we drove out there tho cuz Jamie said the train we were supposed to take broke down 9 times and got 12 different engines! It arrived everywhere 8 hours late! They even got stuck on a bridge with no electricity!!! YIKES!!!! So it was def a good decision on our part. Thanks by the way to all my friends who sent xmas cards! It was so funny, in every single one of the cards you put how cute the pic of audrey was in the card I sent you all! Seriously this christmas I sent about 50 different cards, and doesnt my mom tell me I forgot to send her one?!? OOPS!

So I start my new job on Monday! I'm excited! I still need a babysitter tho for monday nights and wednesday nights. I dont want my mom babysitting anymore cuz she doesnt want to go by my rules with Audrey. I want Audrey on a certain schedule, and she just does whatever. It pisses me off to no end. Things I dont want her having my mom gives to her, so I'm trying to find someone. Besides, I want my mom to watch her over here at my house so that Audrey can go to bed at the same time every night, and my mom is "afraid of the snow". Its so funny actually cuz she must think god hates her so much he will make it snow really bad every monday night just to punish her... grrrr And wednesday nights my sis usually watches Audrey, but I dont think I can give her a ride home and get to work on time after school, so I'm kinda stuck there too. It just makes me mad cuz I feel like we have no support. Like I see Jen and Marisa get all this help from their parents with no bitching, and its like, I cant even ask my mom for ONE DAY A WEEK... so poop on her.

Alright I'm done complaining for now. Wedding planning is going ok except for the fact that seeing me and mark dont talk no more, dan doesnt want to put him in the wedding, but if we dont we really dont know who else to put in it, and we dont want someone walking alone... so who knows!

... and can I just say one more thing about mark??? Well its not totally about mark, but kinda. He told me I was all these horrible things, and that I like to see him hurt or something, and that I am selfish and rude and blah blah blah... well does anyone else think that? Like does anyone think that I like to put people down and get kicks out of it? Like, if I really do all that bad stuff... why did he say he hopes I keep in touch? Why did he say that? Who would want a friend like that anyways right?