January 20th, 2005

Yea, so since school started I am slowly going insane. I could handle full time work, or I could handle full time school.. but both? And being a mom? I am starting to regret this decision. I need to keep my job cuz its a great opportunity. But I want to stay in school, cuz I at least want my undergrad... and I really wanna get my masters in social work. So what do I do? Like, my schedule for school is so messed up. On mondays and wednesdays I have night class, then right after class I gotta go home, and go right to work overnight, working 10-7, then get out and have classes till 12:20 on tuesdays and thursdays, so in other words, I will be awake for 22 hours at a time, and I'm sorry but thats not natural. Then I can sleep all day on tue/thur.. but still.. 8 hours of sleep is nothing.. so when do I see my daughter you may ask? Well again, another thing that sucks... I dont see her like at all :( Like, I am so used to being with her all day long, and this is just killing me. I def need to re-arrange some classes. But I cant... I've looked into it, and its just not possible. So I guess I am gonna have to tough it out for 4 months, and when next semester comes along, I will have to either have only day classes, or only night classes to make it a lil easier on me. I just hope I can survive the 4 months!

And can I just vent about school for a minute *not that I havent been already!* PSYSIOLOGICAL PSYCHOLOGY IS THE DEVIL!!!! I have never been good at science, and this class is everything that I failed in high school. I HATE THIS CLASS...