May 29th, 2003

Kinda upset right now. T-sha and I were supposed to go to the mall today, but she never called me till like, 3 hours later. So I made plans with Jena, Marisa, Carrie, and Chris. We were gonna go to the greece carnival. The plan was to call me at 8 and we would go from there. Well I didnt get a call, so I called them. They were already there, and at the mall. They said it sucked so they werent gonna call me. But i was like, planning on hanging out with them, so to not even call me was kinda grrr.
I think I just realized at that moment that I dont have a best friend to turn to. Risa used to be, but now she has Carrie. Laurie lives in Mass with her man and is to busy for anything else, and well, here I am. I am everyones friend, but I am not that important enough to be a best friend. They call me when everyone is doing something, but nobody calls me just to hang out with me. I never thought it would be this way. Dont get me wrong, I am glad everyone else is happy... it just sucks that I am not.
On a positive note... I am going to Albany tomorrow to pick up Dan.. we officially move in together on sunday! At least something is going right for me... not that anyone would know.