April 8th, 2004

I am so ready for school to be over. I did shitty on a test a few weeks ago, and the sad thing is I really dont care as much as I probobly should. It kinda scares me, I hope I get some motivation back before the baby comes, cuz lately I am not motivated about anything at all. I am a big blob lately. Wanna know something sad? I get so bored cuz Dan works so much, I actually volunteered myself to go to a funeral with my mom on friday night just to get out of the house. If thats not sad, I dont know what is.

Marisa still hasnt had her baby yet. If she doesnt have her by Monday, they are gonna induce her.. yikes, how scary is that? Hopefully tho everything is fine, she just has a little stubborn one on her hands! I cant wait to watch it! I was really skeptical at first, seeing I am 6 and a half months along, I thought it would totally freak me out, but now I am thinking I should be there cuz I will know what to expect, ya know? Not to mention me and this girl grew up together, our parents were at each others weddings, so we think our kids are gonna be close too! The funny thing is we planned getting pregnant and married at the same time when we were younger, and now its actually coming true... very weird!

The other day I was sooo emotional, Jen called me while crying, and she really helped me out. I was thinking some dumb things, and she was so there for me. I hope she knows how much I needed that. She's been looking for a babysitter, and I volunteered myself, seeing as how I am a blob and do nothing but sit around, so we worked out an agreement where I am babysitting for cheaper than a normal person, but seeing I am in desperate need of money, it accomodates both of us very well! I am so glad... I wish my dad could be glad too... he's not exactly to keen on the idea yet, he thinks his house isnt a daycare... um does he not realize that in a few months, there will be a baby here 24/7??? I am working on him, and I know it will work.. i always get my way!

Well I am off now, Dan actually isnt working tonight, so I wanna spend as much time with him as possible!