November 1st, 2004

So I still havent heard from that place I had the interview. I am sooo nervous cuz I really really want this job. They told me its between myself and someone else... and that it would pretty much come down to the references.. YIKES!!! They wanted an employer, and then two college professors.... thats why I'm so scared... Friday Julie and Tracy *my girlfriends from fisher* came over and they had a little bday celebration for me... it really made me happy. They got me a cake and everything! I love those girls.. I really do. I miss them now that I dont see them all the time. Sometimes I think I should have eliminated some people in my wedding and put Jules in it. Its pretty sad that I barely talk to my bridal party right now. ANYWAYS... I got my pictures of Audrey back from sears and walmart on Thursday! We have soo many! But she's totally worth it! Just think, in a few more months I'll have to get her 6 month pictures done! I dont think we'll go so over-board this time! I dont know what I am going to do about school next semester. I can still go to fisher... which in all honesty I really want to do. I want to go full time though cuz then I wont have to pay back student loans... who knows... Its either fisher full time or taking the semester off. Besides.. If I went back to fisher I could have one last semester with my girls. I want to find a new babysitter. Not that Jen isnt doing good... but I just want someone who I know can like, drive her to the emergency room if something happens.. and jens license got taken away years ago, and now she doesnt have a car. I am going to talk to my pastor and see if he knows any babysitters that go to our church. I can talk to them... and maybe work out a payment thing. Thats kinda why I want this over night job... it would give me school flexability. UGH i just have never been more confused in my life about what I want to do... school or no school? Alright well I'm done venting.. wish me luck that I get this job!!!!!