Hopeful

I refuse to be negative about anything this year. Just because in the first 14 days of January I have had a big fight with family, my son was in the hospital with a dislocated elbow, our only family car broke down, made the worst first impression on my host teacher that I could have ever made, I'm getting a bad sinus infection, AND my nephew is terribly sick and has us all worried to death doesn't mean this year will be bad (at least, that's what I keep telling myself). I am trying to give 2010 a 3 month probationary period to decide how this year is gonna go! I figure that sounds fair. It wouldn't be nice for someone to judge you by only knowing you 2 weeks, would it? However, if they were to judge you after knowing you 3 months they probably would have a good idea what you are like. Therefore, I am doing the same with 2010. After 3 months if this year still sucks, I'll know to prepare myself for the upcoming 9 months of suckiness!

Hmmm, let's think of a good thing that happened... Well, I met the woman I'll be student teaching with! I'm very excited! I've been placed in LeRoy teaching 4th grade as a push in teacher. I was talking to my host teacher (Mary) about everything when we met and I am really excited! She seems like a really nice lady so I'm looking forward to working with her. I'm soooo scared though! Obviously I'm nervous to have people watching and judging me all the time, but I'm more nervous about how I will handle everything while having 2 kiddies to take care of. Everyday when I get home from "teaching" Dan will go to sleep, so I have all this on top of taking care of the kids everyday. It will be a ton of work. However, I know I can do it. I'll just be playing on facebook much less (if at all) once it starts.

My host teacher thinks that I should write a journal about my experiences, so I decided I will be starting a blog about it. I'm sure nobody will read it (as I'm sure it will be quite boring) but it will be a good way for me to always have it and look back on it and write down questions I have about teaching. I'm pretty excited to start it actually!

Today I took Audrey shoe shopping with me. To my dismay she said "Ugh Mommy, I just don't like shopping". I couldn't believe my ears. How does a daughter of mine not enjoy shopping???? I could be a professional shopper if I had the money... I just don't understand what there is not to like! Anyways, we went to DSW (which by the way moved and never told me!- Yes, it is their responsibility to tell me personally that they moved even if I only shop there once every 3 years) and I bought myself 2 of the most comfy pair of shoes I have ever worn! (Freaking shoes cost me $100) I needed 2 because I needed black and brown shoes to go with all my pants (a whopping 3 pair). I'm hoping to buy more pants this weekend.

I'm really nervous about my wardrobe because I don't have much "dress up" stuff and I have to not only dress up but be comfortable and appropriate around the kiddies 5 days a week! Ugh! BUT, lucky for me I have a wonderful hubby who understands my concerns and is allowing me to get anything I think I need! I'm so lucky <3

I don't wanna lose my hubby to the overnights tomorrow night :( Usually we fall asleep cuddling, and although it never lasts long, I can't imagine not falling asleep with him next to me. We have both worked the overnights before, but I just thought we were over all of that *sigh*.

It's ok, I have a busy weekend to keep my mind off of things! I have my student teaching seminar at 10am on Friday, along with getting my test results from the test that I took last month which I am quite positive I failed :( Then, Audrey has a birthday party for a girl in her class on Friday night at Chuck E Cheese, so I'm taking Boo Bear with us so Dan can get some sleep. Saturday morning we have Alex's birthday party to go to, and then at 2:30 we are getting our family portraits taken. Then Saturday night more shopping for last minute things I need for student teaching! No exact plans for Sunday yet, but I'm sure that will change. Then Monday I have Tonja's bday dinner, and obviously on Tuesday I start student teaching! Yikes!