I realize it's not even summer yet, but I cannot explain how ridiculously happy I have been this weekend! Yes, it is Memorial Day weekend, so I have 4 days off in a row, which will make any teacher happy! However, I think I am just looking forward to things to come this summer! We bought a pool a few months back and it is being installed this week. Dan and the kids bought me a fire pit for Mothers Day, so I know we'll be having lots of good times by the fire too. I just have this amazing feeling :-)
I think I made the right choice not letting the kids play soccer this year. It would have been too much for me to be going back and forth and scheduling around dance and gymnastics. Besides, when football and cheer start up, they will be busy enough! I'm glad I'll be sitting with 2 of my very good friends (Michelle and Nichole) watching our girls cheer together! I can just imagine all the pictures that are to come! hehe
Saturday, May 26, 2012
September 2011
Old blog post that was never posted: September 2011
Well, Ben is officially in Pre-Kindergarten! He was a bit apprehensive about it on Monday when he started, but Dan said that once he picked him up Ben was in much better spirits and had a very good time! I was thrilled! He also started baseball on Wednesday, so it has been a pretty big week for him! Again, he was a bit nervous, but with time (and a bribe), he did fantastic and is eager for next week!
Audrey is loving 2nd grade so far! I'm not really surprised, I knew she would love this year! We met her teacher at Open House, and she seems like a very nice woman. Audrey also began her 5th (yes, 5th) year of dance this year, and tomorrow she begins gymnastics for the 3rd year. It's crazy how fast time is going by. She is really becoming a "diva", and it's killing me!
Well, Ben is officially in Pre-Kindergarten! He was a bit apprehensive about it on Monday when he started, but Dan said that once he picked him up Ben was in much better spirits and had a very good time! I was thrilled! He also started baseball on Wednesday, so it has been a pretty big week for him! Again, he was a bit nervous, but with time (and a bribe), he did fantastic and is eager for next week!
Audrey is loving 2nd grade so far! I'm not really surprised, I knew she would love this year! We met her teacher at Open House, and she seems like a very nice woman. Audrey also began her 5th (yes, 5th) year of dance this year, and tomorrow she begins gymnastics for the 3rd year. It's crazy how fast time is going by. She is really becoming a "diva", and it's killing me!
Depressed (05/2010)
Found this old blog post that was never posted... came from about 2 years ago: May 2010
I don't know why, but I am in such a depressed mood for the past few days. I have been going places and have been trying to hide it (I think I am pulling it off ok), but I can't get over the feeling of utter and complete failure in life.
Example #1- I am still jobless. Yes, I am subbing, making a whopping $80/day (for a 7 hour day equals $11.43 per hour), but that just isn't enough. Yes, it's more than I was making before, but do you know how depressing it is to see my friends who only graduated high school making more money than me per hour??? Yes, I don't mind subbing, but truthfully I want a classroom where I can do my own thing, not follow someone else's rules and curriculum! I am so beyond depressed about the job situation it isn't even funny. I feel so ashamed that I haven't found a job, or even been called in for an interview! I understand that with all the layoffs recently it is really tough on schools now, and the job market is totally competitive, but that didn't stop my friend Ashley from already getting a job, or stop Brenda from getting a long-term sub job, or Jamie from getting a job.... I really think I am a good teacher. While some people have 3 or 4 letters of reccomendation for their file, I have 9... not because I've asked 9 people, but because people have OFFERED to write them for me. Clearly I'm not as good as I think I am though. It's so depressing.
Example #2- I live at my dads house. While he may not live here and visit for an hour once a week, he still pays the mortgage. I know that I am very fortunate for that, but to be honest I do not like this house. This house was my grandparents when I was a kid, and then my dad bought it when they moved out. It just doesn't feel like my own. Plus, the thing is a piece of crap, and everyone knows it. There is so much work to be done to the house and we just have no money to do it. It feels like something is always breaking. Today it was the plumbing, everyday something electrically goes wrong... I honestly just don't even feel safe here anymore. Plus it's soooo outdated. Everything needs to be redone, which is why nobody else wants to live here. It's so depressing... I'm ashamed of this home, and there is nothing I can do about it because I don't (and will never) have money.
Example #3- My kids. I love my kids, but I wish I could give them so much more. Dan sleeps everyday once I get home from subbing, so it's basically just me and the kids.
I don't know why, but I am in such a depressed mood for the past few days. I have been going places and have been trying to hide it (I think I am pulling it off ok), but I can't get over the feeling of utter and complete failure in life.
Example #1- I am still jobless. Yes, I am subbing, making a whopping $80/day (for a 7 hour day equals $11.43 per hour), but that just isn't enough. Yes, it's more than I was making before, but do you know how depressing it is to see my friends who only graduated high school making more money than me per hour??? Yes, I don't mind subbing, but truthfully I want a classroom where I can do my own thing, not follow someone else's rules and curriculum! I am so beyond depressed about the job situation it isn't even funny. I feel so ashamed that I haven't found a job, or even been called in for an interview! I understand that with all the layoffs recently it is really tough on schools now, and the job market is totally competitive, but that didn't stop my friend Ashley from already getting a job, or stop Brenda from getting a long-term sub job, or Jamie from getting a job.... I really think I am a good teacher. While some people have 3 or 4 letters of reccomendation for their file, I have 9... not because I've asked 9 people, but because people have OFFERED to write them for me. Clearly I'm not as good as I think I am though. It's so depressing.
Example #2- I live at my dads house. While he may not live here and visit for an hour once a week, he still pays the mortgage. I know that I am very fortunate for that, but to be honest I do not like this house. This house was my grandparents when I was a kid, and then my dad bought it when they moved out. It just doesn't feel like my own. Plus, the thing is a piece of crap, and everyone knows it. There is so much work to be done to the house and we just have no money to do it. It feels like something is always breaking. Today it was the plumbing, everyday something electrically goes wrong... I honestly just don't even feel safe here anymore. Plus it's soooo outdated. Everything needs to be redone, which is why nobody else wants to live here. It's so depressing... I'm ashamed of this home, and there is nothing I can do about it because I don't (and will never) have money.
Example #3- My kids. I love my kids, but I wish I could give them so much more. Dan sleeps everyday once I get home from subbing, so it's basically just me and the kids.
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